my life is a paradox.

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something that’s been bothering me lately:

first off: Jackson is so beyond perfect. There’s not a day that goes by that i don’t thank God for him. He’s such a blessing. Every day he makes me fall for him more and more.

secondly: I feel like after falling so deeply with your first real “love” it’s impossible to put all of your being into a relationship. No matter how badly I would like to just let go and let myself fall in love, its not gonna happen as freely as the first time. 

lastly: Please do not mistake this as “OMGZ AUSTYN TOTES MISSES JOSHY OMGZ JACKSON IS A REBOUND!!!!1!” No. In no way, shape, or form, do I miss Joshua. I waited quite awhile until I dated Jackson. He is the farthest thing from a rebound. (and even farther from being anything like Josh.)

That’s tonight’s rant. I really need to get to bed. Tomorrow’s agenda: chick-fil-a breakfast, clothesline to sell some clothes, lovie’s golf tournament with his mom, then shopping to find a dress to wear for beach pictures, and last but surely not least: LYNARD SKYNARD HELL YA!

xxo, a. 

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